When I started this blog I knew I wanted to accomplish something with it. However, I did not know how I wanted to do that just yet. Like my daddy used to say:
Just start and you will find out how it works out for you. If it works, awesome, you won. If it doesn’t, that’s okay, you learnt.
Failure did not exist in my father’s dictionary, in a good sense. He made sure I kept trying but when he died, I missed his external encouragement. I did not have it internalised because of my mother’s abuse. I simply could not believe I could amount to anything. Even two diplomas in two and a half years of extremely hard work, did not make me feel like I accomplished something. I brushed it off as ‘Well, I did it because I knew it was something I was good at. Not because I liked it’. Totally devaluing the hard journey that went with it. It wasn’t easy, living with untreated full blown PTSD and receive two diplomas in such a short time. When it’s two educational programs which together takes about 4 to 5 years. I had a hard time during my internship, but even so, it was the best thing I have ever done. And right now I feel I am allowed to be proud of this accomplishment, I did this all by myself. Because I pushed through, no matter what. Because I knew I could do it. I won.
While writing for his blog, engage in social media and teaching myself more about blogging and WordPress. I slowly came up with a plan and focus for it, I will make a schedule to stay up to date. So there will be some changes coming this March and I will make this blog totally my place on the internet.
Love & Light, Sandra