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What happens when (C)PTSD and an abuse free future meet

What happens when (C)PTSD and an abuse free future meet

Chaos happens. It’s a new type of chaos, that doesn’t feel as heavy as the old chaos. Whoever follows me on social media already read or noticed I have been doing amazingly well lately. Not that PTSD is gone and that I am cured; it’s more of being able to deal with triggers, stay in the present and more importantly: look in to the future. It’s been going so well, I don’t even need EMDR therapy for now. What does…

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Art and its ability to heal

Art and its ability to heal

One of the greatest gifts I received is the ability to create, specifically to draw. Anyone who follows my social media follows my journey of rediscovery. This gift was taken from me by dissociative amnesia and I didn’t even know I once drew and painted. Recovering from a lifetime of abuse also brought back positivity. It brought back passions I forgot I had and skills I forgot I learnt.   The great thing about art is that anyone can do…

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Uncovered Emotions

Uncovered Emotions

The last week my thoughts and emotions have been all over the place. Opening up about the sexual abuse after 20 years, is extremely difficult. Together with my therapist I have been exploring how I must have felt whilst I kept everything to myself. This uncovered a lot of hidden emotions, which at times scare me.   Being an emotional dumping ground for everyone, I have difficulty to recognise my own emotions. My first responds to “What are you thinking?”…

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Self-care

Self-care

One of the most important things you can do in your life, is to take care of you. One thing I learnt last year is that you can’t keep running around for everyone without taking care of yourself. Especially if these people claim to do the same for you and you realise they’d put in the minimum to get the maximum out of you. With my breakdown last year, I learnt I have always done this . With that, I…

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Blog change

Blog change

When I started this blog I knew I wanted to accomplish something with it. However, I did not know how I wanted to do that just yet. Like my daddy used to say:   Just start and you will find out how it works out for you. If it works, awesome, you won. If it doesn’t, that’s okay, you learnt.       Failure did not exist in my father’s dictionary, in a good sense. He made sure I kept…

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